Sorry, but you will just have to get over this! God has rules, and if you follow them, you will be at peace, and go to Heaven. If you reject them and Him, you will be tormented and go to Hell. Every organization, religion, school, and government has rules to follow so that there is not chaos. When rules are broken, chaos will reign. If you don’t like rules, you go to jail or are ostracized in some way in order to PROTECT THE INNOCENT. When you come to Jesus, He makes it possible to come to the LORD Father through your rule-breakings (or sin). Jesus makes the way through REPENTANCE, which is a turning away, or quitting the doing of the things that God deems wrong. Your part is to repent, be sorry for, and quit the sins with HIS help, and accept Jesus as the eraser, coverer, or remover of the sins, and that He is the Son of the Living God! Find out what God’s rules are. Ask for forgiveness and help to stop the sin, and keep working on disciplining yourself to not break God’s rules. You will know that you KNOW that you are going to Heaven to be with Him forever! “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit in me” (Psalm 51:10, KJV), should be our prayer and our greatest hope!